Retrospection 201528, Dec, 2015, by Seema Bhatnagar
Before I begin, let me express gratitude from the very core of my heart to Divine for giving me another fantastic year replete with uplifting experiences.
2015 has been a fantastic, fun filled and exhilarating year for me. Things which I never planned happened to me and filled me with great joy and exuberance. Started this year with a trip to Southern India and then it was followed by other exciting trips in a row– have already shared blog posts on that. Connection with old and forgotten friends, starting and ending of business partnerships, hiring and firing of staff, coaching engagements, business marketing, leaving behind few friendships are few of the things which I experienced this year.
Some of these were hard to achieve and required mental courage to follow but with my persistence and resolve to walk on path of personal growth I could do it with ease and grace.
One of the goals which I planned for this year and could not achieve was the launch of my second book. In fact, I deliberately pushed it to back burner because other experiences were more enriching, moreover, since I already had this experience so I chose to do it later.
With my approach to go easy and light in life, this does not fit into category of any disappointment or failure rather it would be pursued next year.
There were moments when people left me in the midst and had to run the tight ship myself. All those moments gave me a real flavor of what it means to be an entrepreneur, what it means to take a hard stand and what it means to take a tough call in business. There were moments when it felt like as if things are coming to naught but then everything somehow bounced back.
Learning – However tough or rough the situation may be, there is always a ray of hope for new beginnings.
There were few friendships which were sucking and draining my energy, so I decided to part my ways. It might sound mean but I am really not willing to invest my time and energy on people who are lost and have no clear purpose in life. I want to be surrounded by friends and people who are responsible, positive, enthusiastic and willing to explore life in true sense. Have no interests in cribbers and complainers who are always looking ways to blame others.
Learning– Time is a limited commodity, it must be put to best use and must be used optimally for personal growth.
Hobbies and interests
I have thoroughly enjoyed my interest in photography, be it of landscapes, birds, flowers, monuments, marriage or portraits, have tried my hands on all. Besides making inspirational quotes on the blog, I have got few of the best shots framed and used them in my Abundance Thinkers office. My office breathes inspirational from every corner with these pictures. Have also created a desk calendar out of these best shots.
Since quite a long time I was thinking to explore the world of theatre and plays in Delhi. This could happen only last month when I went to watch plays with one of my school friends at National School of Drama (NSD), Delhi and Shriram Bharatiya Kala Academy, Shri Ram Center, Delhi. I was absolutely captivated by the dialogue delivery of artistes and a touch of liveliness in play. I have decided to continue watching plays for next year also.
With an idea to introduce some music in life, I decided to learn and play percussion instrument, dholak. It is a simple musical instrument, fast to learn and add a zest to songs and music, used mainly for singing devotional songs. I created some time out of my routine and took lessons from internet to learn it. It took me only 10 days to learn the basic style with reasonably good speed and rhythm.
For this to make true, my heartiest thanks to owner of YouTube channel, Sangeet Pravaha, for spreading knowledge about Indian classical music and other musical instruments. Special thanks to Pundit Avadhkishore Pandey for giving lessons on various topics with excellent explanation for each step.
Learning - After learning to play it, I realized, how true it is that music is a form of meditation and how it merges you in itself. When I sit for practice I lose the sense of time and feel more refreshed and energized. On top of that, I realized that music is not just music, in fact it is a deep mathematics in the form of rhythms.
I have refurbished my wardrobes by adding colors of all hues. This time, I chose to go for Indian traditionals and bought beautiful handwoven sarees (Indian drape) and hand printed and woven Indian suits. This is driven from my deep rooted appreciation for art. I feel every piece which is handwoven or hand printed is essentially a piece of art showing expression of an artist who created it. Moreover, I want to support the dying art of Indian weaves, so this gives me a strong reason to buy more. Though I am not a crazy shopper but whenever I see a good piece of art which I can afford, I do buy. Now my wardrobe has a good collection of sarees of different weaves.
Enjoyed another healthy year free from any sickness, pain, fever, viral infections etc. . Perhaps, it is a gift of my regular practice of Yoga and control on food intake. Weight is also maintained, though it is something which I am always willing to lose a bit. :-)
It is just that from last couple of months I have developed plantar fasciitis in my left feet. I guess, this is due to wrong footwear and some new yog asanas which I attempted out of enthusiasm. Due to this, I experience pain in heel and can’t walk for too long and need shoes which have good arch support having extra cushions under heels. With regular massage and exercise, it has subsided by 60 percent, should be alright soon.
Many people, including my readers also, are quite curious to know about my plans for marriage and if I am seeing somebody these days.
Yes, a decade ago I had some inclination towards marriage, perhaps at that time I wasn’t mature enough or rather I was more of following others. With time passed by, fortunately I experienced personal growth in all aspects of life which has shaped me as a different individual who enjoys solitude and want to explore life in more depth.
Now, honestly, I have no plans for marriage or to get into any relationship. The sheer reason behind it is - as an individual I find myself complete and enjoy my own company to the hilt. With marriage it comes tons of responsibilities and commitment, especially for a woman it demands extra efforts towards taking care of kids and running household chores. At this very moment I am not willing to invest that much energy and time and find myself more inclined towards attaining personal growth by choosing those activities which can really enhance my consciousness.
Being an individual who is at peace with self, emotionally stable and most importantly who loves freedom beyond its meaning, marriage is more of entanglement than a good insurance for old age. People do ask me out of concern about my support in old age, for that, I really have no answer as I have seen how people with spouse and children are leading a lonely and unhappy life. Anyways, will cross the bridge when I come to it. Really, I am not scared at all about any aspect of life.
Please mind it, I am not sending out a message that marriage is bad, it is only a matter of personal choice, needs and suitability.
Time and again I have realized how insignificant and worthless individual I am but I still get the best experiences of life. This makes me feel petty and pity about myself at times and fills my eyes with tears of gratitude towards Divine and my venerable Guru.
Really, I don’t get tired of saying that I am one of the few blessed and blissed out individuals of this planet. No, I am not bragging of any sort just sharing it because I want others also to aspire to reach this state in life. Only when you reach there, you get the best flavour of life. With all the needed emotional, financial and physical freedom I am able to experience what it means to be an individual and what it means to grow from one level of growth to next. Instead of getting entangled in life matters I am able to see life from a distance and can enjoy its colour and exuberance.
In the matter of growth, this year has once again beaten last year and has taken me one notch up in my spiritual growth. This is something which is difficult to show or to explain to others, it can only be felt. Have dropped many of my inhibitions and fears and have emerged as a fearless and empowered individual. I am able to experience this dimension of growth only with the grace of my venerable Guru and Divine, otherwise I could never ever dream of reaching there.
For the year 2016.
With an idea to enjoy life to fullest with what I have, I have planned to go without any goals or plans this year. Just want to enjoy the randomness and spontaneity of life, which means, would follow go-with-the-moment approach, so keeping myself open for every opportunity or anything which would come my way.
Going by my experience of randomness and spontaneity which appeared this year in my life, it is making me to go with Divine’s plan because it always turns out far better and fulfilling than what I plan. So this year, no plans, no goals, nothing - just plain simple randomness and spontaneity.
With clock ticking for the first dawn of 2016, I am all set to welcome it with a peaceful state of mind, filled with joy and exuberance with absolutely no expectation, no complains and no desires, would just pursue the idea of growth from every possible angle.
By the way, the second dawn of every year is a strong reminder about my sojourn on this planet (my birthday) and prompts me to think how much I have experienced and how much more to go for. This year, adding one more to the counting to touch almost mid forties. Honestly speaking, at this very moment I am a contented individual and whatever (good or bad) is coming my way is a special bonus from Divine. I have absolutely no complains, no strong desires or expectations from anybody or for anything.
Though I don’t celebrate my birthday with much fanfare but personally I celebrate the fact that Divine has bestowed upon me an opportunity to grow myself by providing all required elements in the most comfortable way. Won’t I be considered as mean and greedy if I ask for more?
Undoubtedly, with the grace of Divine and benevolence of my Guru, this is going to be another fantastic and glorious year of my life.